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Meaning of beauty and energy

Journal Entry #5:

There’s a profound truth I’ve come to embrace: beauty isn’t something we chase—it’s something we discover and nurture within ourselves. The more I reflect on this, the more I realize how deeply it’s connected to recognizing my own worth and the energy I bring into the world.  

As someone who spent years in the aviation industry, I poured so much energy into maintaining a polished image, striving to fit societal ideals—especially within the framework of Indonesian cultural expectations. I followed trends, analyzed every detail in the mirror, and silently wished I could change certain things. Even when I achieved fleeting milestones, like glowing skin or fitting into a favorite outfit, the satisfaction never lingered. Why? Because I was only scratching the surface, never truly embracing the person I was beyond appearances.  

Realizing my worth has been a turning point. It’s not just about looking in the mirror and appreciating what I see—it’s about feeling the shift in my energy when I acknowledge my value. It’s the spark in my eyes when I’m pursuing my passions, the confidence in my voice when I speak my truth, and the warmth I radiate when I connect with others. That energy, that authenticity—that’s where true beauty lies.  

When you truly recognize your worth, your life begins to transform. You stop seeking validation from others because you understand that the power to define yourself was always within you. You no longer force yourself into molds that were never meant for you. Instead, you begin to shine in a way that’s magnetic, not because of how you look, but because of the way you carry yourself.  

I’ve also learned how important it is to be mindful of the energy we surround ourselves with. Over time, I’ve trusted my gut when meeting people, steering clear of those whose energy doesn’t align with mine. I now choose to surround myself with individuals who inspire, uplift, and create a sense of safety—a space where I can thrive. Authenticity draws people together, and when I honor my own worth, I realize I encourage others to do the same.  

So today and onwards , I’m committing to this realization. I’m choosing to stop dimming my light for the sake of fitting in or pleasing others. My energy, my worth, and my ability to love myself are my greatest assets—and they always have been.  

Hello me: let this truth anchor you. On days when doubt creeps in, remember that you are enough. You are radiant, not because of societal ideals but because of the energy and authenticity you bring to every moment.  

Love,  


Chits

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